2013: It's time to start a new chapter.

I got an email 📧 from the Penzu (which was an online diary 📔 website and now it has a mobile app too) reminding me that I have an entry (the one and only) from January 2, 2013. 

I had to do “forgot password” to sign in to my account. Reading 📖 this entry from 6 years ago is like reading a letter to myself that I stored in a time capsule. 🕰 Made me realize how far I have come, the fears I have overcome, the progress I have made and the growth I have gained since then. Good job, Rach! 👏🏼 This is the sort of feeling I’m wanting to have in the future and that’s why I’m taking time to blog my thoughts 💭 again this year. Not for anybody else, but for me to track my progress. Anyway, I’m going to copy & paste that 2013 entry to this blog for keepsake. 

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I'll be turning 33 in a few days. The urge to make a change is gnawing on me again and this time I think it's more serious than before.

2012 was more challenging than usual. With ECN being bought by B2BE and all the adjustment and walking on eggshells around the new executives. Plus, them wanting me to handle Project Coordinators and actually doing project coordination for TDN projects. Plus, the realignment setting me back a step or so as Team Lead for Service Delivery of PH. I don't care about being a VP since it was just handed to me out of ECN's previous necessity. But it does hurt a bit loosing my hard-earned title of Project/Implem Manager. Hence the stronger urge to maybe find a new job. Well, it all depends on the review that is going to happen by the end of this month. If I don't get an increase on salary, then it's high time for me to seriously start looking.

As usual, I'm still a bit hesitant to jump ship. Thinking that where I am now with the new bosses and all is just like being in a new job. Have to feel my way around the executives and learn how to do new stuffs like the PC job (w/c I really don't like). At least staying here means I'm working with people I've known for years ... not "alone" as a newbie.

On the otherhand, I think I do desperately need a change. Getting a new job means being a newbie and learning another company's ropes again but it also means a new start. My brain has been stuck doing things the ECN way for so long that I've become stale and stagnant. A new set of acquaintances wouldn't hurt either since I also badly need to expand my social circle. Salary-wise, I'm willing to settle with a job that'll pay me at least the same as what I'm getting now.

So, to jump or not to jump?

I've read somewhere that the secret to being able to make a relatively hard decision a bit easier ... "Most decisions (given careful thoughts) are not carved in stone. Make one, give it a good try. If it doesn't work out, you can always try the other option."

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Update from today, March 4, 2019. It took me 3 f*ckin’ years from when I wrote the above entry to gain enough courage to jump and take a new job. 😅 And after another 3 years, I was recruited back by the CEO/Owner mid last year to become the General Manager of the same company I was working for when I wrote it. 😄 Talk about going full circle! 💫